Showing posts with label Reminder to myself. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Reminder to myself. Show all posts

Friday, August 2, 2013

To be heartbroken


You know that moment when everything is so perfect in your life that you start to wonder when it will come to an end? And then, BAM, you hit the end like an unexpected wall, and needless to say, you get out of the situation broken. Hurts the most when the reason for your previous happiness was a person, and then you get betrayed.
The pain you feel in your chest is real, you feel it just like any other aching part. And there's nothing you can do to stop it, for now. You cry for hours, you feel anger, you want to hurt the person, you want to crash them down, but you can't. They stopped caring long ago. So you just look for comfort, best case scenario, in music, in food, in your friends. It eases the pain, but it doesn't go away that easily.
But you know what? It's not your fault. It's not like you did something terribly wrong and then the relationship went down the hills. If you're feeling that hurt it's highly unlikely that you're the one responsible for it. Read less romantic novels, forget that The Notebook was ever written (and adapted to a movie), put on some make up and don't look at your feet when you walk, otherwise your crown will fall, princess. Yes, life will have its ups and downs, but you are strong enough to survive what life throws at you because you may not remember, but you did before, and here you are standing on your own feet. Remember you are beautiful, and it may be difficult to see now, but you'll have your silver lining. You deserve to be happy, and deep down your heart you know it. You were born to be happy. Don't you forget it.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

To fail

You try and you try again and again, the only result you can get is failure. You can't get a job, a boyfriend, your parents think you're lazy and useless and you can't even eat chocolate. "I have a good family, my friends are nice" you think. But it's not enough to control your tears. You go to your room, hold your guitar and cry alone, hoping no one will listen and show up in your room to ask you what's wrong (probably because they won't understand what is like to be unsuccessful).
But then you get a text, it's your best friend saying "whats up dumbass", and that can make you smile, at least for a second. Then your dog scratches the door, and as you let it in, it licks your tears and look at you with that cute little face that says "Why are you crying when you have me?". All of a sudden you can't remember why you're crying, wash that pretty face of yours (as you realize when you look in the bathroom mirror) and answer the text: "everything's just fine, how bout you?"

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